WHAT HUSBAND WANTS:4-5
[19/06, 21:31] Kolade Collins: *WHAT MY HUSBAND WANT*
Things are gradually changing. The home is not as it used to be again. My husband sometimes returns late and goes to bed straight after taking a shower. I was happy at first that he wasn’t disturbing me in bed but is beginning to get me concerned of whatever maybe happening.
I needed time to mourn my aborted baby, I needed time to forget that my own husband has a hand in all of this. I wanted to forgive him wholeheartedly for leading me into such a dreaded road.
All I needed was time and Ladi gave me enough of it to sort myself. Although is hard for me to forget I still have to put it behind me and forge ahead. I was overlooking Ladi’s behavior all this while but I’m no longer comfortable with it.
We had our time in bed last night but I can’t call it our usual because I sense Ladi’s mind was far from the moment. He was distracted and is unlike him.
While at my shop today, Salami visited and we got talking. Is 6months already and if I have kept the pregnancy I would have been 7 to 8months gone. And within the next month I will be planning to welcome my child. But Ladi made me do the unspeakable.
“You are still struggling to get over this Miwa? Try and let go….your worries will not do any good to you. i hate to see you like this. I’m sure Ladi has forgotten…
“Salami, I don’t know if I will ever forget. Ladi was not the one that went through knives and emotional torture. Ladi started acting like nothing happen right after a month the deed was done. It was my flesh and blood and we should be in our seven or eight month’s pregnancy journey by now if Ladi did not play God over that innocent baby.
I have forgiven him even though he doesn’t really feel sorry for it. But I need to forgive him so that I will love him like I used to. Anytime I see pregnant women or nursing mothers the whole unforgettable experience will start flooding back. It would have been better if the child was never conceived at all or I naturally lose the pregnancy along the way but sending me to get rid of a baby who has done no wrong to anyone. Is what I can’t seem to forget but I’m trying Salami, I’m really trying.”
Salami went about consoling me.
“Miwa, I understand how painful and difficult it was. I thought it was for the best…to save your marriage since Ladi did not want another child and the issue was already causing division in your home.
I’m really sorry. Is over five months, please try to move on and focus on your three children and also your husband. Ladi loves you and I know you deeply loves him. Don’t lose yourself over this past incident. Focus on the blessing at home and let things return to normal.”
I nodded absent minded as one of my sales girl brought in a material, asking me how much it will go last because a customer was pricing it below the price. I told her the last price it can be sold and she left with it.
After sometime she returned again with the same material. That the woman wants to buy it but she is asking for a better bargain. I stood from my seat to meet the woman outside and began to explain to her that the price I gave her was very reasonable.
I looked down her stomach and saw her protruding Belly. She was a young woman and looks happy as she placed one of her hand on her stomach while insisting on a bargain. She is probably seven or eight months pregnant just the same time with me if I have kept the baby.
Because of her condition, I gave her the price she was asking for even though I was at a lost. The material was below the cost price. It was very expensive foreign material but the stubborn pregnant woman insisted on a certain price which did not favor me.
Salami came out to see the woman who stood her ground and refused to have a change of mind over the price or even walk away. After standing there with me, Salami walked back inside to wait.
I have to give the material to the woman, mainly because of her unborn child. She rubbed her hands on her stomach, smile and looked at me before walking away.
Was she trying to mock me or what?
Why will I even think she is mocking me when she doesn’t even know who I am or what I did?
I watched her leave. She turned back and looked towards my shop, Smile again and continue on her way to another side of the market. I waved the negative thought and feeling off as I return to Salami.
“Women and drama, how can she be insisting like that when she knows that her money was not upto the said price? If I was the one, I wouldn’t have given her that material. She will have to stand there until she is ready to go.
I wanted to whisper to your ears not to give it to her but you were already moved by her condition. Listen Miwa, stop feeling guilty over what you did or you will run down this your business in self-pity. Giving out your expensive material to every pregnant woman you see just because they remind you of the past. You have to move pass that. Your husband and children and even your business needs your full attention. Okay?…”
I agreed with Salami as we talked about other things.
A month came and pass and I was regaining back my full self. I was again loving my husband, my children and focusing on my business too. After three weeks of the following month, Ladi said he was going to travel for just two days and will not stay away for more than two days.
He said it was a business trip and he want to do a survey in another state as he plan to open another branch but looking for a perfect place that will favour his business.
I wish him good luck as he left.
He calls the following day that he has arrived and has settled in and we spoke about the children and also what he will be doing within the day.
He did not call again after then. I called him in the afternoon but my husband did not answer the call. I assumed he was probably busy and I decided to call at night but his line was off.
I managed to sleep that night and very early the second day I called and he said he will call back that he was checking out a place. My mind was at rest knowing he was alright.
I waited for him to call the whole day but he didn’t. I decided to call him again in the night and his phone was off. He did not come home as he promise to do the second day and same thing on the third and fourth day.
He called and said he was so occupied trying to figure out the perfect place. He apologies for not returning home as promised. He asked how I was doing and also the kids and I told him that we all miss him and will be looking forward to having him back soon. He promised to come home once he was done.
After a week and few days, I was on phone with him when I heard a female voice saying something to him or somebody close to him but I can’t figure out what exactly was said and then a cry of a baby was heard.
This was the second time I will be hearing a baby’s cry close to him. The first time I did not take it serious because he said he was in a place filled with children but the second time was in the night and the baby’s cry was heard very close to him
I was about to ask who has the baby that was crying but he ended the call and his phone was switched off immediately. I waited the whole night for him to call but he didn’t.
When he later called the following day he said he was preparing to come home and will be arriving the next day. I was happy that finally my husband was coming home and I hope his business journey was a great success as I look forward to having back.
I did not take the baby’s cry that i heard or the female voice serious. My husband do not like baby’s fusing continuously and must have felt so tired listening to a stranger’s baby crying close to where he probably lodged, while he was trying to rest.
I made his favorite meal as I looked forward to having my husband back home. He spent almost two weeks, even though he had promised to spend just two days but end up using two weeks.
The days he spent out there is not a problem, is only for the best. He is working hard to give us the best and that is all that matters to me. I love my husband and I have try to move past every bad feeling or sadness which he caused me. I want my home back as it used to be.
I try to focus on the positive side of life while setting my husband food on the table. The last time I called him he was close to the house and very soon he will be home.
Ladi loves me and the children. Everything he is out there doing is for our own good and nothing else.
*_To be Continue…_*
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[19/06, 21:31] Kolade Collins: *WHAT MY HUSBAND WANT*
Ladi later came home, the children and I welcomed him happily, he had his dinner that night and as we retired to bed, I try to find out how his business trip went. Ladi said he was too tired and needed to rest. I apologies and let the topic slide.
It was after two days that I asked again if his business trip was a success, he said yes it was a big success but still working something out and will go back to the same place soon. I was happy to hear that. I wanted to be in my best and show my husband the love he deserved.
I try not to complain over his late nights or skipping meal sometimes. I try not to look at the part that whenever he returns he stays in his car to make some calls before coming in. I believe they are business calls and he did not want to be disturbed.
My husband is a good man who loves and cares for his family, and i have always try to be a good and loving wife to him. I do whatever he asked of me even if is unfavorable to my person.
Ladi is the man of the house and the head of the home and his words supposed to be respected at all time. I have always supported my husband ever since I met him and he has become my idol. My love for him has never fade within the years. I love him more as each year comes and goes. Isn’t that how it supposed to be?
Yes, I still remember what he made me do. Is very painful and I know I can never forget my aborted baby but I try to understand that Ladi has a point. He does not want another child. He wanted to focus on the three he has and give them the best.
I used such words to console my aching heart and to see more reason to love Ladi instead of hating him for what he made me go through.
I was in my shop one day when Salami came in. Salami sat inside with me. She saw that I was very lively and look happier than before.
“You are back to your old self Miwa…I’m happy for you.”
She said smiling as I check some calculation on the calculator. I paused from what I was doing and said.
“Well, I have the best husband and amazing children, what more can I ask? They are enough blessing and plus you, Salami…my caring friend. Thank you for always cheering me up. Although sometimes you can be pushy but I still look forward to having you around me.”
She laughed and I joined her.
“ehee Miwa, I saw somebody yesterday. My children tailor stays around Ladi’s plaza. I was there to give him some material for my kids because my wedding anniversary is coming up and my husband want us to all be in uniform.
As I walked pass your husband’s big plaza I saw the lady…Miwa, it was the same pregnant lady that was here sometimes ago, she was asking for a bargaining and was very rude in her request. You gave her the material and she walked away. I was mad at you that day…did you remember?
I remembered the lady. I told Salami that I remember who she was talking about and ever since then I have not seen the lady again. She had probably delivered of her baby.
If Ladi had allowed me to keep the pregnancy, I would have also put to birth by now. I will be a nursing mother and looking down on my baby will bring undiluted joy to my heart. Well, is all in the past now.
I asked Salami to continue that I remembered. I silently prayed that nothing happened to the lady or her baby. I don’t understand where the story was going and I was having mixed feeling already as I listened.
“Please, don’t tell me something happened to her or her child? I remember who you are talking about…what happened to her?”
I was inquisitive as i looked forward to hearing the rest of the story.
“Relax Miwa, nothing happened to her. I only saw her yesterday going into Ladi’s plaza. She came down from a car and was carrying her baby. At first I couldn’t remember where I saw her face. She looks familiar and I kept thinking, trying to figure it out. It was while I was at my children tailor’s place it recalled to me that she was the same pregnant lady I met in your shop.
I thought she must have gone to the plaza to get something or to see someone but when I was going back home, I decided to pass through Ladi’s plaza and guess what? There she was again…just in time. I saw your husband walking her down to the car that she came in with. I stood at a distance and watch them. He touched the baby, said something and smile before facing the woman.
I guess is a baby girl because I saw a fashionable pink hair band around the baby’s head. Your husband stood there to make sure that the car move before returning back to the plaza. The lady sat at the back of the car with her baby while a man who is probably her driver drove her out. This is not a makeup story Miwa, I saw her with Ladi and the whole thing looks suspicious to me…”
I burst out laughing at Salami. I laugh so hard at the whole story. Salami was confused as she looked at me thinking I have gone crazy.
What exactly did she want to make out from my husband been kind to a woman and her child? That is more reason why I love Ladi.
I don’t just want him to care only about his family but I also want to see him extending a helping hand to strangers out there who needs help and since Ladi is doing that already, is a thing of joy and not what Salami should be worried over.
I told Salami to stop putting negative ideas on her head over what she saw. Ladi was only been kind to the strange woman. My husband probably paid her hospital bill or helped her in one way or the other when she needed help and the woman came to thank him with her baby.
“If you say so Miwa. But since she was there to thank Ladi for his supposed kindness to her why didn’t she also say a common thank you to you the day you gave her a huge bargain. You gave her that expensive material for almost free and only collected the little change that she was able to offer. Yet, she did not say thank you or return back to do so. But she was over at Ladi’s place to thank him for his kind gesture. I seriously don’t understand but I’m not suspecting anything Miwa, I just don’t like that lady’s attitude that day and seeing her with your husband makes me wonder if she deliberately came down here that day to…”
I hushed Salami to stop talking trash. I was almost quarreling with her for even saying things that are not in line. She apologized and that was where we ended the conversation.
I did not ask Ladi about anything because it was unnecessary. Salami talk was pointless and I don’t enjoy such petty gossips. Ladi may even pick offense that my friend was indulging me in some stupid gossip, so it was better not to say anything concerning what a chatterbox like Salami said.
After few weeks, Ladi traveled again. Within this period he was away, I hardly get him over the phone. And when he calls, either a baby’s noise or a woman talking at the background. I was forced to ask my husband if he was always lodging around women with babies. My husband told me that the cook in his lodge has a baby girl who is just few months old. It was the same place he stayed the last time he traveled.
“The woman’s baby is so cute Miwa. The cook said she can’t keep her baby with anyone, which was why she brings her around. The baby girl looks like our daughter when she was little and I enjoy having the baby around. Hope that is not a problem?” He asked me and I replied immediately
“No….not at all Ladi, I’m actually happy hearing you say all this. You know I love babies and I’m glad that you are getting along over there. I thought you stopped loving children because of your harsh reaction when I got pregnant but I’m happy to know that you are close to one again and….”
He interrupted me.
“Miwa, will you ever forget? Is been fourteen months which makes it more than a year that it happened. I thought you will stop speaking of that by now. I don’t like this at all. You just have a way of spoiling my evening. I have to go…”
“I’m sorry Ladi. I didn’t mean to offend you. i…i…”
I was about saying that I may never be able to forget how I got rid of my baby because if the child was given a chance to live, she would have been around three or four months old now.
I’m reminded from seeing a pregnant woman or new born babies. Hearing the cry of one is how my baby probably cried out to me to save her life if she was giving the ability to speak.
I used to see her in my dream when the whole incident was still new. She could have been a baby girl, her smile was beautiful and she keep calling out to me and when I can’t reach her she fades away. For several months now, I have stopped having such tormenting nightmares.
I was still apologizing to my husband when I heard a woman’s voice whom I assumed is probably the cook working in my husband’s lodge. This time around I heard her clearly.
“Give me the baby, you have been on phone for over 20minutes…. Go and get me the baby’s food on the table, brin…”
Ladi ended the call before the lady will complete what she was saying.
Was that cook been rude to Ladi? That woman must be so ungrateful to command my husband that way without even thanking him for holding the baby for her or she is probably referring to another person not my husband.
Ladi do not like rude and disrespectful women and he dislike women with dirty attitude. He was always thanking and praising me for been different, very respectful and obedient to him. Doing everything to please him. He said that he was very lucky to have me. And I’m blessed to have a loving husband like him. I’m happy that he is getting around with babies even though he never regretted asking me to get rid of our child.
I don’t know why i can’t move pass that, I almost ruined a good evening with Ladi just because I reminded him of the pregnancy he asked me to get rid of.
As I sat alone in my room, I flashed back to Salami telling me about seeing Ladi with a woman who has a baby girl… I thought of the cook’s baby and how Ladi was acting all “Dad” to the woman’s daughter.
I smiled within myself. My husband makes a good husband and a father, not just to his own kids but to outsider who needs fatherly care.
But I hope that cook was not referring to my Ladi, I hope she is not rude and a disrespectful woman who does not know how to appreciate. Because I heard her say to either Ladi or somebody else. “Give me the baby, you have been on phone for over 20minutes….go and bring the baby’s food from the table…”
She was saying something else and Ladi ended the call. I’m sure she was not referring to Ladi because my husband does not tolerate women like that who are filled with ill attitude.
I checked on the children that night before going to bed. Ladi may not call again until tomorrow so no need to wait up for his call. I went straight to bed with the love of my husband filling my heart. I hope he comes back from his business trip soon.
*_To be Continue.._*
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